THE MAGICAL 29

Hello, my cool new college student orientation friend. Still remembering our hard days of making that oh-so-crazy-tiring-sleepless task? You rarely talk to me back then. I don't even dare to text you first. I don't even dare to talk with you alone. Funny.

Hello, my oh-so-you-are-on-the-same-major-with-me friend, we meet again. So you are on the same class with me today,huh? I saw you parked your blue motorcycle this morning. Have you done doing your homework? You laughing so hard with some of our friends. And I feel happy seeing that. And I feel happy to see your back from my seat, hey you my every class distractor.

Hello, my can-I-get-a-ride-from-you friend. Thank you for dropping me off on my boarding house. Today's campuss event was so fun. I'm going to put a super wide smile on my sleep. Mind to disturb me in my dream, tonight?

Hello, my current fave texting friend. Just so you know, your first "good night" text made me spazzed out for a while. My each ear was pulling out my lips. And suddenly I feel so ticklish. Bet the butterflies already flying around in my stomach :)

Hello, my life partner for this 8 years long. Time flies. This day has come. Don't you feel this is a bit surreal, huh? Do you still remember our silly daydreaming? little hopes? and big wishes? Honestly, I had sent so many many of them to God in my every prayer, in secret. For good. For God to makes you the one who standing beside me, today.

Hello, my never ending life energizer. Stop. Don't laughing at me, for making all these cheesy confessions. But hey, it's our day anyway, so who care? :D

Congratulation for being my husband from now on. Prepare your self to have an overjoyed life and love.

Your #1 fan,
07/250837/TK/32422

A moment before I'm becoming Mrs. Damareza.

Poetry

2014 Travel Recap

2014 comes to an end!

Gosh..time really flieeees.

Every time I want to write something, then another something has caught me up and then I'll tell my self to do it later later then never.

And suddenly BAM! Dec 31st is coming.

Happy? yep. Super happy? yep.

I do have many sad thing happened in my life this year, but the happy things just buried it all that I could barely remember the sad ones. 

My life recently is..kinda exciting.

I have a new job, new office, new friends. It's more tiring but I do enjoy it. And I don't have those "hate Monday" feeling anymore at least.

Any good thing happened? Suuuree!

Four of my bucket list had checked this year, and I'm pretty lazy to write everything, haha.

1. SINGAPORE SHORT TRIP - November 2014

    IT'S YG FAMILY CONCERT BABY!

YG Family Concert - Singapore Stadium

Now I declared my self as an official YG Stan, haha! Gosh gosh gosh. I barely hold my self to buy All Or Nothing 2NE1 Concert in Jakarta because I know, that YG will have their YG Family Concert in Asia and I'm pretty sure that at least, Singapore will be one of their stop. So I'm waiting like crazy then suddenly BAM! They announced it! With so many struggle finally we made it!

BIGBANG, 2NEI, EPIK HIGH, PSY, and... WINNER! Aaaak..the feels! Song Mino I LOVE YOU!! hahaha. Me and my friends, Cici, really head over heels with this new YG boy group. Their song ALWAYS played on my playlist the time they had debuted. Yes I do broke my saving BUT nothing could compare my happiness to see them all sing live in front of my eyes! Now I'm waiting for BIGBANG comeback and maybe, another Asia Tour, huh? :)

Note: 

If I can attend the next BIGBANG tour, then I can say that I see GD & TOP once a year since 2012 (2012: BIGBANG Alive Concert, 2013: GD One Of A Kind Concert with TOP as guest, 2014: YG Family Concert)! 

2. CIREBON TRIP - November 2014

Cirebon Trip

Me and bf kinda have an agenda to visit at least one city in my country Indonesia that we have never  visited before. So this year's destination is Cirebon! Main objective? of course it's culinary! Nasi lengko, nasi jamblang, empal gentong, we try everything we could. Nom! And for next year's destination, looks like Palembang and Medan already waving and calling us to come.

3. TRYING PARAGLIDING - December 2014

Puncak Paragliding

Paragliding now has been out of my bucket list. It was that fun so you craving for more flying time! We tried it at Puncak Paragliding with bf, my junior-senior high school friend Jeni and my college friend Farid. The beautiful sight up from above really captured my heart. Feel the wind caressing my face and the moment you take off from the ground gives an awesome chill. Promise my self that this isn't the last :)

4. BROMO FAMILY TRIP - ALL IN  - December 2014

Family trip all in was one of my biggest thing on my bucket list. I have promised my self to bring my family all in to some place, spend some happy time, doing the thing that we never did before. After saving up some amount and calculating the budget, I booked some flight to Surabaya (and train for my brother because he is currently lives in Jogja), made an itinerary, booked the car and driver for our transportation at Surabaya, then holiday we're coming! 

At first we just want to spend hanging around Surabaya but I remembered that my Dad has been a long time wanting to go to Mount Bromo. And fortunately my kindhearted driver offering a reasonable price for Bromo midnight trip (without spending night). So here we go! Bromo-Malang-Batu Trip for 3D3N Family all in! I'm happy seeing my family's happy face. Short time, but full of memories.

Batu Secret Zoo - Museum Satwa - BNS

The Breathtaking View, Bromo

I wrapped 2014 with many happy things. Some of my bucket list finally out of it, and better things were coming too! I pray and wish that 2015 will bring us more happiness. Welcome, 2015. Welcome, chances and challenges!


Note:
for you who have been waiting for Person Of The Year 2014, I'm still on it. Can't wait!

With a glass of Ice Milo and heavy poured rain.

Poetry.

Dia Dalam Imaji.

Aku ingat ketika cintaku jatuh perlahan di kaki nya.Ketika yang kugambar di sela jam kuliah adalah wajahnya, bukan lagi pohon ataupun secangkir kopi.Aku bingung. Di mata ku tiba-tiba memiliki magnet yang saling tarik-menarik dengan magnet di badannya. Aku melihat jelas, kupu-kupu berterbangan di sekitarnya. Jika dia sesekali menengok ke arah ku, tiba-tiba leher ku berat langsung tertunduk. Keramik-keramik kelas menjadi warna-warni. Kelap -kelip berganti warna pelangi. Bibirku melebar di tarik kuping kanan dan kiri. Oh ya satu lagi, ada yang aneh di dada ku. Seperti ada yang mengetuk-ngetuk. Seperti ada yang ingin masuk.

Dia juga aneh. Ada banyak kunang-kunang menempel di bajunya, bersinar-sinar dengan terang. Kupu-kupu berdatangan dan hinggap di kepala, kemudian berubah menjadi bunga. Bunga berbagai rupa dengan harum sampai hidungku.

Kupu-kupu tadi, tiba-tiba datang ke arahku. Sebagian mengelitik pinggang ku, dan ketika aku tertawa, sebagian lagi masuk ke mulutku. Mereka berkejaran di tenggorokanku, kemudian menari mengelilingi perutku.Badanku semakin tidak karuan. Ketukan di dadaku semakin keras, tarian di perutku semakin cepat.

Oh, dia mendekat!

With a cup of Frozen Cappuccino and Fettuccine Aglio Olio.

Poetry.

My Bucket List!

Some of them have been done, and some other haven't.

Keep saving, keep traveling!

You only live once anywaaay~

1. Eat Nasi Padang in Padang
2. Eat Pempek in Palembang
3. Eat Pho in Vietnam
4. Eat the best Bo Lo Bao in Hongkong
5. Makassar culinary treats
6. Bali trip
7. Waking up with a sight of Toba Lake, Medan
8. Waking up with a sight of Cimaja beach, Pelabuhan Ratu
9. Cultural trip to Flores
10. Swimming in Tanjung Cermin, Berau
11. Rafting in Green Canyon, Pangandaran
12. Family trip ALL IN to Mt. Bromo
13. Stay for months in Karimunjawa, Jepara
14. Hiking to Mt. Prau, Dieng
15. Explore Borneo!
16. Jazz Gunung 2015
17. Backpacking in Malaysia
18. Backpacking in Thailand
19. Overseas solo traveling
20. Singapore - USS Holiday Trip
21. Amusement Park Date with You!
22. Umroh to Mecca
23. Autumn in Korea (Seoul, Jeju, Busan)
24. Winter in Japan (Tokyo, Hokkaido)
25. Watching aurora with spouse (Norwaaaay!)
26. Smiling cheerfully in Santorini, Greece. haha.
27. Holly Festival in India
28. Go to BIGBANG Concert
29. Go to CNBLUE Concert
30. Go to YG Family Concert
31. Take a pose in front of YG Building! hehe
32. Go to G-Dragon Solo Concert
33. Go to Pharrel Williams/NERD Concert
34. Go to SOAD Concert
35. Watching 4Men live performance
36. Watching Ailee live performance
37. Watching IU live performance
38. Watching Timnas at GBK with my kiddos
39. Having rumah baca at my home town
40. Java trip on road with my spouse
41. Getting married with emerald or navy or nude kebaya :D
42. Cirebon Trip
43. Trying Paragliding
44. Trying Marine Bridge
45. Trying Rappeling

33,3% done, 66,7% to go!

A GO GO GOO!

Person Of The Year 2013 (#POTY2013)

Hello!

I just write a few (literally a FEW!) of post in 2013, but didn't realize that 2013 is nearly comes to an end. So many ups and downs happened in my life for the past year, and in that year, somehow many things have had influenced me in many ways too. And just like what I had wrote back then in 2011 about #POTY2011, I'll write the same thing for 2013. 

For you who haven't heard about it, Person Of The Year is a project about someone or something "who most affected our lives" . Two years ago on #POTY2011, I listed 4 nominees. They are Jung Yong Hwa, Nike Ardilla, Good Day's Caribbean Nut, and Running Man Korean Variety Show. The winner? it goes to Running Man which really really has affected my life, especially my life being as a final year student, haha. Are you curious about this year's nominee? If you are, please keep reading, and if you aren't, then just go back to your seat :D

So, here are the nominees for #POTY2013!

1. Dad, Where are We Going??

"Dad, where are we going?"

          This is variety show. This show makes me laugh so hard. This show gives you a lot of cuteness. This show contains 5 dads and their children who went to an outing to the countryside every two weeks. This show is full of happiness, natural life being as a kid, innocent face, innocent thought, innocent talk, and the most important is honest act! I often think about they future (who the heck am I to think about their future?hehe). It is gonna be cool if someday, when they reach their teen era, they are being gathered again, even for just one day show (my wish -_-).  My fave kid? Sometime it's Joon, sometime it's Junsu, but mostly it's Yoon Hoo! He is very considerate either towards his hyung or his dongsaeng. Arrgghh.. I'm kinda sad that this show was coming to its end of season :( But anyway, I will always rooting for you all my kiddoss!

2. Kopiko 78 Degrees

"Kopiko 78 Degrees"

         Again, it's a coffee. I'm known for being a coffee drinker, but I acknowledged my self for not being a coffee addict. I'm starting to drink coffee way back before I'm being an adult. Yes, I drink coffee ever since I'm on an elementary school. I used to finish up the coffee my dad has left before he going to work. My worst moment is when I was at my dorm (I could drink up to 3 cups of coffee a day, and it's often not an instant coffee). But now my time has been sucked up to work and barely could make the real one, so I drink it most from the packaged one. My choice goes to Kopiko 78 degrees this year. Ever since this product been launched to market, I'm falling in love with this one. It has nice taste, neither too strong nor mild. And on top of that, it really awakes you from that sleepy feel! In that short time, you already captured my heart dear Kopiko. 

*"Uuuu.u..u..u..u...u..yeah baby give me one more night"* *Kopiko 78 degrees's commercial soundtrack playing*

3. Mahardhika Muhammad

It's Dikung!

             Who is he? He is my 9 years long friend. His sat two seat in front of my seat when we're on second year senior high school. His home only take 5 minutes far by motorcycle from my house. And what has he done for being a nominee this year? We were crazy over the same thing! Korean thingy, but not as an idol, but as an artist. We see them as an entertainer. And why it has to be this year? Because I think 2013 was the craziest year of us being a fangirl and fanboy, hahaha.  We know no time for chatting along. 7 am, 10 am, 1 pm, 8 pm, 11 pm, 1 am, even at 3 am sometime we still chatting about something (that actually) unimportant, haha. 

           My bias, his bias, my preference, his preference, we discussed it, like, seriously discussing about it. We exchange a picture of our bias, like i sent his or he sent mine. I sent him Nana's picture and the he sent me GD's, Top's, etc etc. I have so many crushes actually :D We exchange newest MV. We exchange favorite dramas. We exchange the latest variety episode. We just exchange everything what we got!

4. YG Entertainment

"YG Entertainment'

               Actually, I have a big curiosity towards YG, esp towards the CEO Yang Hyun Suk. It's like, "Man, what it is in your head to be able to gather all these such talented people whom able to do good almost in everything?" Bigbang is my utmost fave. They completing each other. Bigbang is amazing, they could do their solo with the same awesomeness as when they were a group. In this end of 2013, all of them act as a solo. Starting with Daesung and his Japan promotions, then Seungri with his album, after that Taeyang with those Ringa Linga dances, and then our leader GD with the remarkable Coup de E'tat album (I loooove all his song in this album), and Top ended it with Doom Dada digital single. And how happy I am when finally they put Indonesia as one of their stop in Alive Galaxy Concert Tour back then in 2012. I'M SOOO HAPPY I MIGHT COLLAPSE! 

BIGBANG Alive Galaxy Tour - Jakarta Indonesia - Oct 2012

The concert? IT'S SUPER DUPER UBER AMAZING! The stage, the lighting, the sound, the live music, the backdancers, the properties, even the entrance queuing entry, their quality! They give quality. YG gives quality. Ah, I'm just loving them all, YG united!

5. DikkaVega

Dikka Vega

               Oh my, this couple! I know them from instagram. Just by glances I know that their account is worth to follow. I adore them. The wife is a stylist and the husband is a photographer. What a perfect couple matched by heaven. They work together overseas, and their work is awesome. Maybe I don't know about them that much, but somehow I feel they has affected my life this 2013 since I always open my instagram and feel happy just by seeing their instagram feed, haha.

6. G-Dragon

" Leader Kwon, G-Dragon "

               How I supposed to start about this man? I'm speechless already, haha. So, he is the leader of Bigbang, but has a solo activity as well. AAAH I'm going crazy if I'm speaking about GD. The point is, my 2013 life being is full of him. His music, his on tv appearance, his performance on music stage. His music set to be the most played on my playlist, since the mid 2012 with One of A Kind album until the end of 2013 with Coup De Etat album. He produced his own album, composed the lyrics, composed the song, and even produced his own label mate song. If I asked to describe GD's music, I'll tell it's a music that has full of swaaaag! The beat, the melody, the tone, all harmonized to the point it could makes you feel an eargasm. Am I praised him too much? Maybe, but who careees? haha.

               I have had seen him twice. First at Bigbang Alive Galaxy World Tour Concert in Jakarta Oct 2012, and second at G-Dragon One of A Kind world tour concert in Jakarta June 2013. YEAA I went to his solo concert! Oh my..the performance is asdfghjklasdfghjkl i can't describe it with words! 

G-Dragon One Of A Kind World Tour

I love his falsetto voice the most among Bigbang member. It makes you high high..I'm so high :D. 

             So, do you still need to ask who is the winner of 2013 Person Of The Year Project? Of course it's hiiiiiim! My genius-ly crazy GD, the one of a kind man, and the one and only my gold and diamond boy Kwon Ji Young! Saranghantaaa and congratulations!

Lets face 2014 with faith and see you on #POTY2014!

Bekasi, December 31st 2013.

When I was sick and not going to the office :D

Alles Gute zum Geburtstag!

This is the look, that made me head over heels in love six years back then.

Your scent, your laugh, your step, your gaze. Everything turn me into that awkward girl every time I run into you. My heart beats so crazily that I think it was going to explode.

White shirt, blue jeans, white sneaker, black backpack. I do still remember the moment you came from back gate of our campuss. Six point thirty a.m, first class in such morning. Monday.

Breezy weather, a bit windy, fresh air to breathe, and a little sunflare comes through the window. Isn't it a perfect moment to fall in love?

Spending time with you was the second happiest moment of my life. The happiest being… the first time I met you. Just so you know.

Happy Birthday, my world's best energizer!

I love you. I do.

Your number #1 fan,

Putu.

Back from Hiatus!

How I supposed to start this? Haha. After a very looong time hiatus, now I'm back! It's been a very hectic, dynamic, and dilematic time for the past year. So many ups and downs happened throughout my life. Love, hate, work, friends, everything had mixed up to paint my life. Surprisingly November has come already!

This long awaited month finally comes to me. NOVEMBER. 

My Bonch's birthday, my Tabi's birthday, my super exciting to be trip, the mystical Six, Taeyang's comeback, BIGBANG single, Top's new album, Top's awaited movie: The Commitment, LDG's drama, JYH's drama, Bogor plan, and see? It's filled with a bunch of lovely things.

And also on this month, I wish I could make it! The possibilty to change everything that has been happened over almost two years.

Wish me luck! And may November being nice to all of you as we asked it to do ♥

Bekasi, 051113.

After watching GD on youtube :D

My Supermans!

My supermans!

Suddenly, I miss them a lot. Pria-pria di atas yang selalu nemenin saya dari jaman saya kecil. Main tak umpet, main abc lima dasar, tempat curhat siang malem. We're known for being geng komplek, :p. 

Being protected, being the youngest sometime makes me happy yet a bit sad. Happy that I know I have five man as my guardian, yet sad that I know we couldn't just like back then. They had grown up being a man. Actually there was two other, but i can't find their photos. Those five boys (ang heri, wahyu, ebi, ana, ang ye), four of them already being a married man, with three of them already had a son. Only me and the peanuts left (peanuts, a nickname given for Wahyu). I'm the youngest, and he still pursue his dreams. But we both happy for the other. Play together, grow up together. It really become my precious thing in my life. 

So here I am, praying for all of you where ever you are, what ever you were being right now. Let this universe played it's role, and hope we can meet someday with all of our child :)

Bekasi, June 18, 2012.

Ini Bukan Perjalanan Memori

Aku putuskan ini akan menjadi sebuah perjalanan memori. Kembali sejenak ke kota yang penuh kenyamanan, sebelum aku menghadapi fase hidup selanjutnya.

Ada setumpuk harapan terselip. Berharap setiap oksigen yang ku hirup sama segarnya. Berharap setiap terik matahari yang membakar sama perihnya. Berharap setiap langkah sama ringannya.

Keretaku sampai pukul lima. Langkah kaki ini aku derapkan kembali di Jogjakarta.

Embun selepas solat subuh memang sama dingin. Tetapi, ada segelintir kealfaan menghadang perlahan.

Perasaanku tidak seantusias dulu. Kamu tahu kenapa? Karena bukan kamu yang menungguku manis di gerbang Stasiun Tugu.

Lampu-lampu jalan masih sama indahnya. Kosongnya jalanan juga masih sama damainya. Jogjaku masih indah, tetapi Mengapa tidak meriah.

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Sudah siang hari , dan nyatanya aku malah malas pergi karena teriknya matahari. Lalu buat apa aku kemari?

Aku seperti Mbah Surip. Bangun tidur, tidur lagi. Bangun lagi, tidur lagi.

Dan kemudian kuputuskan untuk melanjutkan niatanku kembali. Aku datang untuk memori.

Setiap jalanan yang kita lewati di kota ini. Setiap harum warung makan yang biasa kita singgahi. Aku terpaku.

Aku putuskan untuk membeli makanan dari tempat-tempat itu. Berharap ada perasaan yang sama. Berharap dapat merasakan sensasi yang serupa.

Bukan, bukan memori manis yang menghampiriku. Justru segerombol rasa getir menyeruak. Jantungku seperti terhimpit, sesak. Mataku perih, perih sekali. Bukan ini yang aku harapkan. Bukan, Tuhan.

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Senja tiba. Aku berada di jalan besar sekitar bandara. Jalanan beratap langit biru mempesona. Tempat kita mengagumi perbukitan Wonosari. Tempat aku selalu meneriakkan, “lihaat..pesawatnya dekat sekali dari sini!”.

Kamu tahu? Rasa getir itu datang lagi.

Aku merindukanmu amat sangat. Semoga senja di tempatmu juga sama hangat. (Fira Basuki's words)

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Hari ke dua. Aku bangun cukup pagi untuk menyelesaikan beberapa urusanku. Selepasnya, sudah aku putuskan tempat makan siang untuk hari ini.

Lokasi makan yang terpencil. Tempat makan favorit aku, kamu, dan teman-teman kita. Menemukan masakan Sunda di tanah Jawa seperti menemukan harta karun buatku. Menu sayur asem, ikan asin, dan sambal terasi yang hanya tersedia di hari Selasa dan Jumat bagai primadona di sini.

Aku coba makan dengan lahap. Aku coba makan tanpa mengingat. Seketika aku ingin mengubah tujuanku. Ini bukan perjalanan memori. Ini perjalanan biasa saja. Aku tidak ingin rasa getir menyesakkan itu datang lagi.

Kemudian hujan turun deras sekali menjelang magrib. Aku dalam perjalanan menuju sebuah toko buku. Bajuku basah, badanku dingin. Tapi aku tahu, dingin ini belum seberapa dibanding kekosongan di pikiranku.

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Hari ke tiga. Aku memutuskan untuk meyudahi perjalanan ini.

Aku mulai mengingat kembali semuanya. Aku kira aku rindu pada ini semua. Aku kira aku bisa merasakan hal yang sama.

Aku rindu. Aku rindu kamu menunggu di depan pagar. Aku rindu kamu memakaikan mantel di kala hujan. Aku rindu kamu memakaikan pelindung kepala ketika tanganku penuh memegang barang. Aku rindu kamu menggenggam jariku dengan satu tangan. Aku rindu hari Sabtu yang selalu kita nantikan.

Aku menarik nafas panjang. Seketika aku merasa perjalanan ini tidak berguna. Jogjakarta memang sangat berarti, tapi ternyata kamu lah yang member arti.

Lampu-lampu jalan masih sama indahnya. Kosongnya jalanan juga masih sama damainya.

Biar memori tetap jadi memori. Percuma aku mencari-cari, toh faktanya tidak ada satupun perasaan yang aku dapatkan dengan serupa.

Selamat tinggal, Jogjakarta. Terima kasih telah menjadi tempat kami menyulam memori terbaik dalam hidup, sampai hari ini.

Yogyakarta, 4 Maret 2012.

Untuk @saesaalindra

This is for who I called, bestfriend.

Sudah lama, lama sekali. Waktu pertama kali saya bertemu dengan dia. Kami masih amat sangat belia, saking belianya bias dibilang masih jaman kuncir kuda. Muka masih lusuh, badan masih amat sangat kurus, dan kerjaan masih lari-lari teriak-teriak saja.

Sudah lama sekali, waktu kami pertama kali bertegur sapa. Kira-kira tingkat empat, empat SD tapi, haha. Saya anak baru, dia anak lama. Saya anak pemalu, dan dia anak yang sering tertawa. 

Sudah lama sekali, waktu kami duduk bersama. Waktu itu tingkat satu, Sekolah Menengah Pertama. Kita berjuang masuk di SMP favorit yang sama, kelas yang sama, dan memutuskan untuk duduk bersama. Dia anak yang rajin dan cerdas, itu yang ada di pikiran saya waktu itu. Beda sama saya, saya itu rajinnya mepet, tapi sama-sama cerdas, hahaha. Jemputan yang sama, arah rumah yang sama.

Sudah lama sekali, waktu kita sama-sama mengenal cinta pertama. Semua ditumpah-ruahkan pada buku yang sama. Pagi siang sore malam, tak pernah bosan kami bercerita. Teman, pelajaran, perasaan, semua saling dibagi rata tanpa sisa. Pulang pergi naik angkutan kota pada tingkat dua. Punya teman-teman yang sama, dan amat sangat berharga. Membentuk sebuah kelompok teman seperti anak-anak abege pada umumnya. Ada 10 orang, di mana kami berdua termasuk di dalamnya. Sepuluh orang yang sangat istimewa. Gonzed namanya.

Dan memang sudah lama, ketika kami mulai tumbuh menjadi remaja. Masuk kembali ke Sekolah Menegah Atas  favorit yang sama. Sayangnya kita tidak pernah berkesempatan satu ruang. Perjalanan mencari jati diri masih dilakukan bersama. Walaupun pernah diselingi salah paham, tapi hati kami tetap tidak bisa saling berjauhan. Tetap meminta sebuah kebersamaan. Berapapun bertambahnya teman-teman kami yang lain, dia tetap ada di lingkaran yang paling dalam. Siapapun orang-orang yang pernah singgah di hatinya, aku tahu, dan hapal urutannya :D

Kami berbeda. Dia periang, saya pendiam. Dia lebih suka berbicara, saya lebih suka mendengar. Dia lebih suka mengkritisi, saya lebih sering tidak acuh. Dia bisa pergi-pergi sendiri, saya harus ditemani. Dia rajin belajar, saya rajin menggambar, haha. Dia ikut cheerleading, saya anti cheerleading. Dia pandai ber make-up, saya pintar cuci muka. Dia punya baju warna-warni, baju saya hitam-putih-abu. Dia tidak bisa mengendarai  motor, saya bisa mengendarai motor. Dia bisa mengendarai mobil, saya tidak bisa mengendarai mobil, hahaha. Itulah kami, saling melengkapi.

Hari ini, 31 Januari 2012. Tidak butuh waktu yang lama untuk mengenang semuanya, setelah 13 tahun kita berbagi segalanya. Selamat ulang tahun, Fauziah Saesaria Alindra. Maaf aku selalu tidak bisa hadir di setiap hari pergantian usiamu selama beberapa tahun terakhir. Doaku selalu untukmu, untuk cinta dan cita-citamu. I love you, @saesaalindra. Very much. 

Jogjakarta, 31 Januari 2012

Dini hari, sembari main the sims social :D

absurdity. aku ke kanan, kamu ke kiri.

Percakapan pada pesan melalui telepon seluler pada Rabu malam.

b: neng, lg apa?

s: lagi ngawang. aku gatau ada di mana. aku lepas, aku meretas.
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b: woy, jangan kebanyakan bengong. entar kalo lepas beneran gimana.

s:  pada siapa aku meminta, jika dunia semakin merenta. peluk cium yang kau berikan, mengapa semua terbatas angan. aku tenggelam, dalam karam.

b: wogh, apaan dah kamu ini. udah deh sini ke jogja aja.

s: kepala lelah tengadah, sandaranku hilang dalam jarak. menjejak tanah, menepi pada setiap sepi-sepi.

b: mau kamu ngarang kaya apa juga aku ga ngerti.

s: mengapa kamu diam, sayang. Diam pada kata, diam pada pelita, diam dalam kesederhanaan rasa kita. Raih aku, dengan sejumput rindu tanpa benalu.

b: sadar, sayang. sabar, sayang.

s: sadarkan aku, dari asa melaju tinggi sempurna. sabarkan aku, dari jengkalan tangan tanpa hingga.

 b: ----------- (gada balesan lagi. gakuat kayanya) haha.

18 Jan'12

ketika rindu datang memburu (cih.)

Person Of The Year 2011 (#POTY2011)

Tulisan ini, merupakan sebuah project yang diusung oleh temannya teman saya. Sebuah project yang niatnya sebagai bentuk apresisasi terhadap someone/something yang baik secara langsung maupun tidak telah memberikan banyak pengaruh untuk kita di tahun 2011 kemarin. Judulnya memang Person of the Year, tapi si empunya ide menyatakan it can be someone or something, “who most affected our lives”.  Berhubung apresiasi setiap orang berbeda, jadi saya rasa gak masalah siapapun yang bakalan saya masukin ke nominasi POTY2011 ini, yak an?? So here I listed the nominee :)

1.       Jung Yong Hwa

Jung Yong Hwa - C.N.Blue (Vocalist)

Pertama, tolong jangan di-underestimate hanya karena dia termasuk salah satu Korean wave. Dia ituu..bueddhaa, haha. Saya suka sama dia. Suka sama suara dia. Suka sama musik dia. Beda dari kebanyakan boyband atau girlband Korea lainnya, dia ini vokalis di salah satu band. Band lho iki..bukan boyband. The band’s name is, C.N.Blue, band yang dulunya debut pertama di Jepang sebagai band indie dan juga menjadi band opening konser Linkin Park di Jepang, September 2011 kemarin. Yong Hwa cs ini setia banget nemenin saya mulai dari awal tahun 2011, masa-masa waktu saya masih sibuk kenalan sama skripsi. Cuma dia yang bikin hati saya terketuk untuk ikut mem-fangirl-ing setiap waktu serupa gadis-gadis abege jaman masa kini. Gak butuh mikir dua kali buat masukin Yong Hwa masuk jadi nominee. Senyumnya itu loh, bikin melting, bikin merinding, dan bikin lupa sama pacar sendiri, hahaha.

2.       Nike Ardila

Nike Ardilla

Siapa gak kenal cewe super cantik ini? Siapaaaa? Suaranya yang maha dahsyat selalu nemenin saya, apalagi kalo lagi sedih sedah agak merana. Walaupun musiknya sudah ada di playlist saya jauh dari sebelum tahun 2011, tapi saya ngerasa dia tetep harus masuk nominasi project ini.  Maaf buat temen-temen kos saya, kalo saya suka ga sadar diri nyanyi teriak-teriak ngejar suara Teh Nike, yang walaupun urat-urat udah pada membelotot mau putus tapi tetep aja gak nyampe. Buat saya, Teh Nike itu the best singer in Indonesia ever. Sayang rezeki umur dia cuma sampe tahun 1995, waktu saya masih kelas 1 SD. Dan biarpun saya masih mungil kecil begitu, memori-memori kejayaan dia masih nempel di otak saya, sampai sekarang, dan sampai kapanpun. I love you pisan, Teh Nike. Pisaaaaaaaaaaaaaann..

3.       Good Day Carribean Nut

Good Day Carrebian Nut

       Agak out of the box sih ini sebenernya. Berasa jeglek gimanaaa..gitu., hehe. Tapi ini fakta. Good Day Carribean punya peranan sendiri dalam hidup saya di tahun 2011. Dulu sebelum saya kenal sama si GDC ini, saya ok-klop banget sama Kopi Susu ABC. Sampai akhirnya GDC ini narik perhatian saya. Selalu nemenin saya meskipun panas, mendung, atau hujan. Sambil ngetik skripsi (pencitraan), nge-tumblr,  nge-blog, atau cuma browsing-browsing oye nyari foto-foto Yong Hwa, haha.  

4.       Running Man

GwangSoo-JongKook-JaeSuk-JiHyo-SukJin-Haha-Gary

And here is the winner, taaddaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Don’t walk, run! Salah satu variety show asal Korea yang paling the best menurut saya. Mulai dari konsep, pemilihan cast, sampai guest. Dari episode pertama yang saya tonton sekitar akhir tahun 2010, Running Man selalu ngisi hari-hari saya dengan ceria (cih, haha). Running Man sukses bikin masa-masa pengerjaan skripsi saya jadi lebih berwarna. Bahkan, pernah selama hampir satu bulan saya gak nyicil skripsi sedikitpun karena laptop nya saya pake buat download Running Man terus, hahaha (kalo ini dibaca pembimbing saya, matilah ini). This program just makes you addicted. Dan saya gamau gila sendirian gara-gara nonton Jae Suk cs, jadi saya sebarin virus ini ke temen-temen saya, even ke adek-adek saya, dan even Jaka pun (adik saya kelas 1 SD-red) ngerti dan hapal jalan cerita plus pemain-pemainnya. Sebenernya masih ada beberapa program variety show lain yang suka saya tonton dan gak kalah bikin sakit perut, mulai dari Family Outing Season 1-2, Oh My School, We Got Married, Happy Together, Invicible Youth, dll, tappiiiiiiii..tetep Running Man yang punya chemistry paling hip diantara anggotanya. The red line is, Running Man lah juara dari project Person of The Year ini. Everybody’s thumb up for you all!!

seperti ini, rindu.

rindu itu seperti layang-layang, senang akan terbang tapi sulit dikendalikan. rindu itu seperti ingin pulang tapi tak ingin kembali. tetap berada di tempat tujuan sampai hati tenang. rindu itu, seperti menjahit memori dengan waktu. seperti pelangi yang diharapkan muncul oleh orang-orang sakit hati. seperti rasa ingin mengusap wajahmu. seperti rasa ingin menjentik hidungmu. seperti rasa ini, yang ku tahu sebagai rindu.



Bandung, 270811.
ketika orang-orang puasa dan aku tidak.

Viva us! Die you plagiators.

Sometime, it’s sucks when somebody copies everything about you. 

The words, the liked, the style, and the worst is liked your men. 

But you have to be proud, because that somebody was realize that you were more more and more impressive than him/her.

-ohpetrichor-

 July 2011

sometime we just want discover the truth, but sometime we just dont want to make everything worst.

Have you ever felt those kinda situation? a bit dilemma. you really don't know what you got to do. the feel that deeply hurts you, but you never know where does it come from.

yes, we are a human. we have a sort of ego. the ego to feel right, the ego to be right. but there, there is a hole we always missed

‘Forgive and forget,’ that’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back; when someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled, old wounds never heal, and the most we can hope for is one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget.'

diseleksia kata.

malam-malam, berjalan di sebuah departement store,
merujuk pada sebuah baju nan ciamik.

niat hati mau bilang : 

"kamu mau aku pake ini?"

yang keluar:

"kamu mau pake aku?"

yang menjawab:

"oh..mau neng. kalo kamu ngebolehin"

 DANG!!!

Yogyakarta, 21 Maret'11

ketika bermalam selasa-an.

too much Kiyutness in this appearance!

terlalu kiyut buat saya,kan?

ya, saya baru ngeh. baru sadar. kalo template blog ini, header blog ini, rasanya too much buat saya. saya emang suka burung hantu, saya suka ketika dia menjadi burung, bukan menjadi hantu. tapi kayanya ga gini juga caranya,ya kan teman-temin?
jadi, ini akan secepatnya saya ganti. saya ganti jadi yang lebih oke. lebih ciamik. dengan taste saya yang sebenarnya. okeee :D

Jogja, 20 Maret'11

minggu pagi yang kelaparan.

Fake State

We are not being mature, we are just doing a fake in public!

status teman di salah satu social media yang bikin saya nunda tidur. beralih menghadap layar monitor buat ngeluarin beberapa pikiran. selintas.
ya, masih banyak yang belum (bisa) bersikap dewasa. apalagi saya. but at least im not doing something fake in public. berpura-pura senang karena yang lain senang. ikut-ikut tidak suka karena yang lain tidak suka. atau mungkin berpura-pura suka tapi di balik layar mencaci maki membabi buta. blah.
come on. live your life as you like. saya rasa tidak perlu buang energi buat hal-hal semacam ini. suka ya mari, tidak ya sudah. tidak perlu ditambah-tambahi atau dikurang-kurangi. toh ini negara demokratis.

or here's anothers statement,

I'd (still) like to choose unfollowing people rather than muting them

walaupun saya tidak berkecimpung langsung di dunia yang ada mute-mute nya, but i tend to agree to these bound of words.

no offense. ini hanya pola pikir yang seketika terbentuk ketika membaca status @nsalsabila dan @moeyoez :)
terimakasih, teman.

Yogyakarta, 18 Maret'11

ketika suhu Jogja serupa Bandung.

random talk!

pertamanya ngomongin film. terus entah kenapa jadi ngerembet ke sora aoi. terus ngelantur ngomongin JAV. terus tiba-tiba nyambung ke cerita tentang pendidikan indonesia. terus lagi ngayal niatnya ngebenahin SD inpres di kampung halaman. terus penolakan sama sistem pemerintah. cerita lanjut ke korupsi. keprihatinan sama birokrasi pemda. lalu menyambar keteguhan keluarga tidak mampu.


what a night! i think we should freeze our brains for a moment :D

Jogjakarta, March 13 2011

silly yet funny,

historical DAY!

i want to write it here, the bound of words. mysterical phrase. becoming a powerful sentence.

you, yes you. you'll drive my life, my activities for one semester ahead.

i'll type it correctly. so you have to read it carefully. and i'll do it passionately!

:: Risk Management : Risk Perception, Construction Industry ::

lets be friend with me, Risk!

Jogjakarta, March,7th  2011.

dizzy head..